The end of the semester is near, and November has been the most stressful month in my life. Between trying to balance school with my personal life and organizing the talent show, it’s more than adequate to say that I am knee-deep in responsibilities. Throughout the last two months, I’ve been scrambling to meet deadlines, apply to scholarships, work on my college applications, and still make time for extracurricular activities. Since I’m president of the drama club, I basically have to do everything concerning the club. Even though I have assistants, I still have to plan out exactly what I need them to do and constantly be after them making sure they do what I need them to. The stress doesn’t stop there; I still have to make enough time in my day to do other things like homework and chores. Since my boyfriend is back in town from college for the holidays, I also want to make sure to spend time with him. If that weren’t already a lot to handle, I’ve also been studying for the upcoming SAT in December. My dream is to attend UC Berkeley and I’m aiming for a score of 1800, so to prepare, I’ve been studying every single day for a minimum of thirty minutes.
Somehow I’ve been managing, but the consequence of having all that activity going on in my life, is that my hair is falling out in chunks and I’m getting hardly any sleep. Every night I go to sleep late doing homework, and wake up early every morning, it’s the only way I can make sure to have enough time to get my siblings and myself ready for school, eat breakfast, and get my siblings to school with a good five to ten minutes to spare.
The clock is ticking and I feel like I’m going to explode. I’m scared I won’t pass my classes, and I won’t graduate. I’m scared my dream school won’t accept me and I’ll never be able to realize my aspirations. I have taken the SAT three times in hopes of reaching a score that’s good enough to get into Berkeley, but so far I’m barely scoring above average. I always have to work so hard to understand things that seem to just click for others. I don’t get how some students can understand things so much more quickly than I do, I just know that I have to work harder to understand it.
I wish I had time to be in a play right now, or maybe take piano lessons but my time is already more than occupied. Although I want to be involved in school, sometimes I feel overworked and it feels like I’m missing out on other fun opportunities, because I’m trying to be good enough for UC Berkeley. Berkeley has been my dream since elementary school, since before any of my friends had even heard of it, and now it’s so close and I don’t know if I’ll be able to reach it.
Even with all the work I’ve been constantly putting in, I still have a slim chance of getting accepted. If I don’t get in, it will almost be like all my hard work is unimportant, and that scares me. It scares me a lot, but what’s even more terrifying is that I know it’s not about to get easier any time soon. From what I hear, high school is a piece of cake compared to college. If what I’ve heard is true, then frankly, I don’t know how I will handle the workload in college, but I know I’ll figure it out. Some days I’m so stressed out, I can’t help but want to quit, to just drop everything and everyone and just quit, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned in this “piece of cake” high school, is that I will find a way, and that hard work always pays off. That’s my motivation; I’ll go bald before I give up on my dreams.
Somehow I’ve been managing, but the consequence of having all that activity going on in my life, is that my hair is falling out in chunks and I’m getting hardly any sleep. Every night I go to sleep late doing homework, and wake up early every morning, it’s the only way I can make sure to have enough time to get my siblings and myself ready for school, eat breakfast, and get my siblings to school with a good five to ten minutes to spare.
The clock is ticking and I feel like I’m going to explode. I’m scared I won’t pass my classes, and I won’t graduate. I’m scared my dream school won’t accept me and I’ll never be able to realize my aspirations. I have taken the SAT three times in hopes of reaching a score that’s good enough to get into Berkeley, but so far I’m barely scoring above average. I always have to work so hard to understand things that seem to just click for others. I don’t get how some students can understand things so much more quickly than I do, I just know that I have to work harder to understand it.
I wish I had time to be in a play right now, or maybe take piano lessons but my time is already more than occupied. Although I want to be involved in school, sometimes I feel overworked and it feels like I’m missing out on other fun opportunities, because I’m trying to be good enough for UC Berkeley. Berkeley has been my dream since elementary school, since before any of my friends had even heard of it, and now it’s so close and I don’t know if I’ll be able to reach it.
Even with all the work I’ve been constantly putting in, I still have a slim chance of getting accepted. If I don’t get in, it will almost be like all my hard work is unimportant, and that scares me. It scares me a lot, but what’s even more terrifying is that I know it’s not about to get easier any time soon. From what I hear, high school is a piece of cake compared to college. If what I’ve heard is true, then frankly, I don’t know how I will handle the workload in college, but I know I’ll figure it out. Some days I’m so stressed out, I can’t help but want to quit, to just drop everything and everyone and just quit, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned in this “piece of cake” high school, is that I will find a way, and that hard work always pays off. That’s my motivation; I’ll go bald before I give up on my dreams.